Fate

Sometimes I laugh, often times I cry. Sometimes I wonder what it is like to die. When it is the end will I know the difference, or will it be just the same. Will I feel peace or will I feal pain. It's funny how when at the end one looks at the begining. Knowing now that one step to the right or left could have changed the ending. I guess I am not really sure what to do. If life were so easy I would see it through and through. The truth is I am tired of life and all of this. Ingnorence has left me and so has my bliss. When one is left with nothing there are only two things one can do. Give up, or fight back to the top. The choice is up to me and to you. As far as how I'll handle it I don't really know. Me personally I am ready to go. If things were that easy then I would already be gone with my head to the sky. Without any reason or signs of goodbye. What an interesting delima life creates, as for me right now I will put my money on fate.

Fate had left me to the whirlwind of chance. An ongoing struggle a never ending dance. Recent events have opened my eyes to a whole new way to live my life. Instead of the roll of the dice or flip of a coin. A new F word of faith is what I've joined. Its a much better feeling to know he holds every grain of sand. In his almighty powerful hand. Kiss the world goodbye, turn my back on it all. No longer do I choose to close my eyes and just fall. I now put my life in the hands that matter most. The gentle, loving hands of the Holy Ghost.